Slightly more than a month later, I flipped the decision that was handed to me on a plate (and semi-forced down) lol.
Though shaken but things are back to square 1; at least on the surface. However, it just made me realized why I was sort of swayed in the first place. People managing you does play a big part. Every now and then give stun and prata to see and eat :)

Oh, something else happened late last month and it's gonna be another big decision that I've to make. How can people be so sure? I feel like I am always in doubt of myself.

Too much what ifs. Too much doubts, too little faith... in myself.