Life is such a joke.
Yes, I was disappointed cause I was so sure I can get it. Alas, it was gone; merely hours before my turn.

没缘就忘了吧。Apparently 没鱼虾也好 cannot be applied to everything haha...
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Slightly more than a month later, I flipped the decision that was handed to me on a plate (and semi-forced down) lol.
Though shaken but things are back to square 1; at least on the surface. However, it just made me realized why I was sort of swayed in the first place. People managing you does play a big part. Every now and then give stun and prata to see and eat :)

Oh, something else happened late last month and it's gonna be another big decision that I've to make. How can people be so sure? I feel like I am always in doubt of myself.

Too much what ifs. Too much doubts, too little faith... in myself.

I am back! Realized the older I get, the lesser I post things about myself/what's happening to/around me online.

Many a time, nothing much excites me. Jaded liao. I made a decision last year and something flipped and it is gonna steer my next 2 years in another direction. Good luck to myself! 是我优柔寡断 or I simply don't have a mind of my own?