i hate growing up. i hate responsibilities, acting like an adult, being mature, doing adult-ish things, saying adult-ish things. i hate losing the fun vibes, hate having to be serious, attend meetings, people judging you, me judging people, the way people look at you when you say something that is not considered as adult-ish or not having a mature thinking or not having BIG goals in life.
i hate interacting with people cos i NEED to and not i WANT to, hate to pretend i'm interested in a conversation and expend my network.

i want to be young, be a child, be 18, be fun, have fun. i want to rear some animals, do farming, sit and watch the sun rise and watch it set. i want to act like a kid, roll on the floor, jump on the sofa, watch telly, munch on chips, dip my toes into the sea, laugh till my stomach cramp and tears drop, write letters, lick some stamps, cycle, picnic. i want to laugh and have fun when i work, make friends cause i want to, go work smiling and come home smiling, fall onto the bed with you and just roll around all day and night.

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