can't remember how does it feel like to be happy anymore.
i feel like i am constantly giving out negative vibes and i feel angry at myself.

feel so small yet feel like im the biggest joke ever.

i hate growing up. i hate responsibilities, acting like an adult, being mature, doing adult-ish things, saying adult-ish things. i hate losing the fun vibes, hate having to be serious, attend meetings, people judging you, me judging people, the way people look at you when you say something that is not considered as adult-ish or not having a mature thinking or not having BIG goals in life.
i hate interacting with people cos i NEED to and not i WANT to, hate to pretend i'm interested in a conversation and expend my network.

i want to be young, be a child, be 18, be fun, have fun. i want to rear some animals, do farming, sit and watch the sun rise and watch it set. i want to act like a kid, roll on the floor, jump on the sofa, watch telly, munch on chips, dip my toes into the sea, laugh till my stomach cramp and tears drop, write letters, lick some stamps, cycle, picnic. i want to laugh and have fun when i work, make friends cause i want to, go work smiling and come home smiling, fall onto the bed with you and just roll around all day and night.

-end-

I wanna bring my skates out for a breathing session, you wanna join? :)

Amazing I'm back!

Once again, Nov is the month for some night-time activities, we Butter-ed and got squashed by tones of people, hopped away to others.. all is fun, all is fun :)
Amazed by ShuffleLike RokStar and that girl! *thumbs up!!*


and for my 18th birthday, i'm a proud owner of this sexy piano black polaroid camera :) ♥♥♥

I LOVE ITTTTTTTT!!!!!!! THANK YOU!!!!!! ♥♥♥

backtracking abit.. it's halloween once again! we always find time for fun :D


~meow~

I will be back :)

thank you for those words, i will totally and absolutely wash my hands off that place.
if you don't want see me there again, then same goes to you :)
bitter bitter woman..

2 years and back to where i was, but no regrets.
now i will suit up and charge forward!

happy starting of november :)
thank you for the new toy! no excuses of you not wanted to take photos with me anymore :p
i love you ♥

decision made, letter thrown in!

empty, lost, sad, disappointed, angry, guilt, tired, stressed, frustrated - all mashed up.

every week got issues, i feel like a fucking idiot.

sometimes i wish you could give me some support too..

BYE BYE REST OF THE MONTHS, HELLO AUGUST!

time flies, no special emotions cause it's august, but yes emotions cause we're 4 months away from next year (WHAT?!)

Same old same old in my life with shocking news here and there..

Ikea-ed and got myself a new table, chair and mirror! 'liang zai' (eh hahahah, as claimed by my mom) gave my lappy new life and now it's W-7 (yay!)

on the way to clearing some of my AL, i need to get out of this small red dot!

happy first to us <3
I said "let's watch 'hot tub time machine' again, to celebrate what happened a year ago!", and you laughed <3

Now let's see who is doing exactly what he/she said to me last year. I should have known better; this is not the first time either.

But if you can't practice what you preach, don't use the guilt tactic on me.

So much for saying I've changed.. this and that.. ain't you the same too? :)

Anyone home?

No longer the same as yesterday.

Love-hate relationship with my job. What's new?

what more can I ask for - when you are the one who make my everyday a whole lot better, makes me laugh and make me feel like every date is our first date? ♥

bao's sms, which i think funny!!!!
“情人节到了！我在想，女人天生喜欢什么花? 玫瑰花，百合花， 胡姬花，牡丹花，大红花，都是错。。。答案是。。。有钱花，尽量花，乱乱花，拼命花。。。
但女人不喜欢的花是。。她的男人，口花花，心花花。。祝情人节快乐！”

you put in 101% of your effort, hoping to ensure that everything runs smoothly with no hiccups along the way. obviously this is not a one man show and requires teamwork - however your other teammates does not think the same way as you do.

bo chup attitude, cause once the day is over, to them, their job is done. tomorrow you work ah? your business lor. i'm not working, so you clean up the shit i leave behind then..

so tired.. i'm doing my best already.. really..

the day when you realize that the world does not only evolve around you - that's the day the world will become a better place.
you're just fucking selfish. in every single way.

hate the rain, it always spoil whatever plans we have..

Threw away TONS of things today,
so much so that I feel like throwing myself into the bin too.

WE'RE GOING XIAOLONGBAO!
Full attendance somemore! (Y)

'cause you got me crying,
you got me sad,
you got me thinking about all those words you said.

it's a super duper rollercoaster ride tonight. you're someone too important, really.
don't ever say those words again.
i hope you sees it from my point of view. please don't let anything change..