went to visit Ms. Peh today.
her condition was rather bad and I was really shocked to see her in this state.
she was crying in pain when we went up to her room to visit her.
her arms and legs are all swollen and she is in great pain.
heartbreaking
all of us were taken aback, and none of us could utter a word.
Ms. Peh could hardly hold a conversation, but still she thanks us for paying her a visit.

her sister told us that these 2 days her condition is getting from bad to worse.
all of us.. just couldn't utter a single word.
we were all too taken aback...

Ms. Peh was our sec3 emaths teacher,
i wasn't really close to her...
and, the deepest memory of her in my mind was the time when she had a talk with me regarding my maths result.
and that was the only time when i actually cried in front of a teacher/in school.

at that point of time, i rather dislike her.
as i felt that she was pin-pointing at me.
however, after i graduated and as time goes by, i started to think that the only reason she bothers to sit down and talk to me is because SHE CARES FOR HER STUDENTS.

no one would deny she's a great teacher...
one who cares and shower her students with love, care & concern.
one who is approachable and always willing to lend a helping hand.

seeing her crying in pain is just so unbearable.
it makes me feel very guilty.
guilty for actually disliking her.
i'm sorry...


please bless her, free her from her pain. please don't torture her in this way..

*****
am feeling a lil down.. a lil blue after yesterday's incident.
i wish i could pick myself up fast and regain that kind of enthu & feel HOPEFUL again.
but i guess i just cant do it.
feeling rather useless. cause i wish to give up.