goodbye 2012, hello 2013.

guilty as charged, I've neglected this space for far too long! haahha I wonder who still come by and read anyways, maybe only me..

hope 2013 I'll be smarter, happy, happier and still happier ;)
still not ambitious about work, not keen in climbing the corporate ladder.. maybe I should be a farmer or something..

be back soon, hopefully this will not be my first and last post in 2013 :p

me so lazy ):

i thought it was alright to have some small expectations, but i guess it's not after all.
not at all. the smallest expectation can lead to the biggest disappointment.

you want so many things in life. freedom, happiness, his attention, his time, money, comfort zone, your bed, his affection, enjoying your job, more time and hundreds, thousand and million other things.
i think i should focus more on the fact that i have had these certain things than sulking over the loss of it.
i still hate it when we say goodbye. i hate the fact that we are going to see each other less. UGH WHY AM I LIKE THIS?!
i hate myself for wanting to stay in my comfort zone, maybe i should throw myself overseas alone and then probably i'll learn how to survive.
be a sponge, have an open heart and mind - i will keep reminding myself this. i need to have a little more faith in myself.

can't remember how does it feel like to be happy anymore.
i feel like i am constantly giving out negative vibes and i feel angry at myself.

feel so small yet feel like im the biggest joke ever.

i hate growing up. i hate responsibilities, acting like an adult, being mature, doing adult-ish things, saying adult-ish things. i hate losing the fun vibes, hate having to be serious, attend meetings, people judging you, me judging people, the way people look at you when you say something that is not considered as adult-ish or not having a mature thinking or not having BIG goals in life.
i hate interacting with people cos i NEED to and not i WANT to, hate to pretend i'm interested in a conversation and expend my network.

i want to be young, be a child, be 18, be fun, have fun. i want to rear some animals, do farming, sit and watch the sun rise and watch it set. i want to act like a kid, roll on the floor, jump on the sofa, watch telly, munch on chips, dip my toes into the sea, laugh till my stomach cramp and tears drop, write letters, lick some stamps, cycle, picnic. i want to laugh and have fun when i work, make friends cause i want to, go work smiling and come home smiling, fall onto the bed with you and just roll around all day and night.

-end-

I wanna bring my skates out for a breathing session, you wanna join? :)

Amazing I'm back!

Once again, Nov is the month for some night-time activities, we Butter-ed and got squashed by tones of people, hopped away to others.. all is fun, all is fun :)
Amazed by ShuffleLike RokStar and that girl! *thumbs up!!*


and for my 18th birthday, i'm a proud owner of this sexy piano black polaroid camera :) ♥♥♥

I LOVE ITTTTTTTT!!!!!!! THANK YOU!!!!!! ♥♥♥

backtracking abit.. it's halloween once again! we always find time for fun :D


~meow~

I will be back :)

thank you for those words, i will totally and absolutely wash my hands off that place.
if you don't want see me there again, then same goes to you :)
bitter bitter woman..